River: Distracted?

[mdlbear]

I'm feeling pretty seriously out of it right now. I shouldn't snap at my daughter in total confusion when she asks me to take my laundry out of the drier. I shouldn't scrape my car on a concrete pillar getting out of a parking spot, the way I did last night. I shouldn't be so distracted that I pay $1500 to Alhambra instead of to Amex.

I should be socializing more at OSCon, the way I did the last three or four years. I should be getting more done at work. And at home. I shouldn't let bills and paperwork pile up, the way I have been.

I should make more music. I should pay more attention to the people closest to me. The people I love. I should take better care of myself.

I'm stressed, and distressed, and distracted. Probably depressed, but I can't really tell -- I'm not feeling much of anything right now.

Comments

[thnidu.livejournal.com]

What theyve said. And GET REST!!!! And take some time off work if you can. You CAN'T function 100% of normal when 75% of you is dealing with abnormal circumstances, and I tell you this from being right there with you. I'm taking today off from work for just that reason, and after this post I will get off the web and continue with the household stuff I took the day off to do.

And I'm stealing your icon because I need it just as much as you do, and what it says jibes pretty well with what my therapist told me on Monday, so there!

[mdlbear]

I've already taken a lot of time off work; I'm at a very enjoyable conference right now; I'll be taking off more around next weekend, and I have a high-priority project due on August 5th. Taking more time off work right now when I've been working at maybe 10% of capacity for the last 8 months is, unfortunately, only going to make things worse.

But I understand -- I'll do it as soon as I can.

[thnidu.livejournal.com]

Ach, ja...