River: Distracted?

[mdlbear]

I'm feeling pretty seriously out of it right now. I shouldn't snap at my daughter in total confusion when she asks me to take my laundry out of the drier. I shouldn't scrape my car on a concrete pillar getting out of a parking spot, the way I did last night. I shouldn't be so distracted that I pay $1500 to Alhambra instead of to Amex.

I should be socializing more at OSCon, the way I did the last three or four years. I should be getting more done at work. And at home. I shouldn't let bills and paperwork pile up, the way I have been.

I should make more music. I should pay more attention to the people closest to me. The people I love. I should take better care of myself.

I'm stressed, and distressed, and distracted. Probably depressed, but I can't really tell -- I'm not feeling much of anything right now.

Comments

[mdlbear]

*smile* I know.

[acelightning.livejournal.com]

What you "should" do is the things everyone's pointing out. Talk to your doctor(s) about your meds (blood tests may be appropriate), the amount and quality of sleep you've been getting, and possibly even nutrition. Talk to your county and state social welfare agencies, or at least peruse their websites for any assistance that might be available. Simplify your life as much as you can - delegate whatever it's appropriate to, put complicated projects on hold, lower your standards about how often the bathtub gets scrubbed. And TELL people precisely what needs doing around you; you might be surprised at how much of it winds up being done.

[mdlbear]

Hmm. "People around me" usually just means the resident Teenager, who is not usually inclined to be helpful.

I should probably post a wish list, shouldn't I.

[acelightning.livejournal.com]

You ought to post a wish list. (Yes, I've read your more recent entries.)

[mdlbear]

*grin*

I ought to do that soon...