River: Distracted?

[mdlbear]

I'm feeling pretty seriously out of it right now. I shouldn't snap at my daughter in total confusion when she asks me to take my laundry out of the drier. I shouldn't scrape my car on a concrete pillar getting out of a parking spot, the way I did last night. I shouldn't be so distracted that I pay $1500 to Alhambra instead of to Amex.

I should be socializing more at OSCon, the way I did the last three or four years. I should be getting more done at work. And at home. I shouldn't let bills and paperwork pile up, the way I have been.

I should make more music. I should pay more attention to the people closest to me. The people I love. I should take better care of myself.

I'm stressed, and distressed, and distracted. Probably depressed, but I can't really tell -- I'm not feeling much of anything right now.

Comments

[mdlbear]

The one I have is the one Kaiser gave me. I was told recently that they'll replace them periodically, but I don't know what kind of selection they have.

Mine's a Respironics.

[obsessivewoman.livejournal.com]

Good idea on this. Also, if this isn't the problem, you might also ask if a small dose of melatonin (3 mg) might help keep you asleep throughout the night (barring Colleen actually intentionally trying to wake you). I use it on nights when the cats are doing things to keep me up or my body hurts too much.

[wyld-dandelyon.livejournal.com]

Where I got mine you could try them on with a cpap pressurized to your pressure, so you could see how comfortable they were pressurized, and how badly they do or don't leak at pressure. That's very helpful!

[mdlbear]

That would be nice. I think I'll be lucky if I have a choice at all at Kaiser.

[wyld-dandelyon.livejournal.com]

Urgh! Look online, there's lots of options, so you have a clue what you're talking about, and then go in with your own CPAP so you can show them how badly it leaks. It's more work that way, but if they perceive there is a real problem, with sleep apnea having the potential to damage one's heart (among other things) they may work harder to fit you properly, or at least give you a referral to some provider who can do so!