Hippo, birdie, two ewes...

... to my Younger Daughter super_star_girl!!!!! I hope it's a fantastic one, and that your next year will be a happy one.

Done yesterday

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It seemed as though all my attention yesterday was eaten up with talking to the people taking care of Colleen: the case manager, the doctor (Dr. Chopra) at the nursing home, nurses, the physical therapy team, the director of nursing. It's not encouraging, either in terms of her actual progress or the care I think she's getting. Probably a long post on that later today. I got angry at a few people I probably shouldn't have, but hopefully it was productive in terms of getting them to pay attention.

It was an eventful day at work, too, though: two meetings in the morning (one cut short by the phone call from Dr. Chopra), a presentation dry run in the afternoon, and a coworker fainting, apparently from loss of blood due to a kidney stone, while I was obliviously on the phone. He's fine.

On my afternoon visit to Colleen I relayed the information that the PT staff didn't think she was doing enough; she responded by sitting on the edge of the bed (with only a little help from me with her weak left leg).

In spite of being pretty relaxed and upbeat by the time I got home, to the point of laughing at a bit of silliness with the Wolfling, I was bascally out of emotional spoons. In spite of a nice visit from firecat and Aahz (WINOLJ), I got progressively more depressed as the evening wore on, and was something of a wreck by the time I got to bed. I slept badly.

I'm feeling better this morning after a nice visit with Colleen, but still south of OK. Colleen seemed both optimistic and determined; that cheered me a lot. So did feeling loved.

I was operating pretty far out of my comfort zone dealing with Colleen's care; that's probably a lot of what ran me out of spoons.

River: getting angry at the news

I rarely pay much attention to the news these days. To some extent that's due to lack of time combined with my inability to split my attention, but it's also due to the fact that it often makes me feel angry and helpless. I just realized that it's probably another effect of my having more empathy than I know how to handle.