Colleen[13]: Running low on cope

[mdlbear]

The morning got off to a rocky start. The day was dreary and dark, and so was I. The one bright note was going to Fry's and finding portable DVD players on sale for $79. I got to Colleen's about 11:30, half an hour after I had told her I would; she gave me a worried phone call just as I was parking. I went in and basically lost it, and ended up whimpering on her shoulder.

I hadn't realized I'd run that low on cope. Singing to her helped.

She called a little later, frantic, because she couldn't turn on her DVD player. Turned out that she was pushing on the power light, on the front edge, rather than the power switch on the side. *sigh* She figured it out just as I was ready to head out the door.

Neither of us is all that high on cope at the moment, but she's doing better now. I went in again about 3:30 to bring in a pair of earbuds and a couple of dresses for her to wear. Found her sitting up (in the comfy folding chair I'd brought in this morning), disconnected from her IV for the afternoon, and reasonably chipper.

I spent a lot of the visit with my head on her shoulder, being comforted and loved. I hadn't realized I needed it that much. Needed her that much. It's been over three decades since I've been this lonely; I'd forgotten what it was like.

She'll be OK -- she seems to be settling in, making friends and having conversations with anyone who comes in the room. I'll be OK, too, but LOSCON is going to be weird. It'll be my first gencon ever without my Cat. If you see me, feel free to come up and give me a hug.

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[mdlbear]

Indeed. For a while we were afraid that they _would_ send her home, with a portable pump. That would have been bad.