mdlbear: (g15-meters)
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The two things on the schedule yesterday were working on taxes, and acquiring a new UPS to replace the one whose battery died on Friday. The taxes aren't done yet, but I did get most of it entered. At this point only dividends and deductions remain. The Schedules C were easier than I expected, thanks to better tagging during the data-entry phase. I'm still running late, though.

I picked up the UPS, an APC BX1500G, at Fry's on the way home from taking the YD to her modeling class. It's taller and narrower than the older 1500's; I put it in the bedroom because it has an explicit mute button; it also has more outlets, which allowed me to replace the old power strip as well. It just barely fits on the shelf, though; I may want to move it to the floor. It also has a master-slave arrangement that allows something like a computer to control power to other devices like monitors. I'd really like that for the desktop, at some point.

The fileserver now has 170min of runtime, up from 11. Whee!

I appear to have no more serial-port UPSs in service; even the little 320VA unit by the phones is USB connected.

How to be Happy (the free e-book from 17000 Days that I finished yesterday) has a section on flow, starting p. 51. It points out that happiness comes after the flow state; while you're in flow you're totally absorbed in what you're doing. Wow, does that ever resonate! Especially with this last week at work. C.f. "The Little Computing Machine".

Several excellent links up there in the notes.

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This came out of an incident toward the end of this weekend's trip.

Snapdragons:

The snapdragon is a pretty flower with a fierce-sounding name. It looks as though it's set up to eat insects, but in fact all it wants to do is hold on to them long enough to deposit some pollen on them to send to the next snapdragon they visit. But sex by proxy is an entirely different story.

The snapdragon effect

It turns out that [livejournal.com profile] cflute, who we were visiting over the weekend, is even more sensitive than I am to what she calls "crosstalk". If she's trying to talk or write, words directed at her will break her concentration. We were engaged in a rather complex and stressful project when [livejournal.com profile] pocketnaomi derailed C's train of thought and got "snapped at". She was, understandably, hurt and upset, and said so. This got C angry in turn; N left the room rather than let it escalate. (edited 0719t1535 in response to a correction in comments.)

It turns out that N is at least as sensitive as Colleen is to phrasing and tone of voice. It's a hypergolic mixture. And C doesn't have the benefit of 30-odd years' experience with this problem.

When it happens between me and Colleen the usual result is Colleen bursting into tears, but it's the same thing. I wrote this up back in February in this post, where I attributed the phenomenon to the confusion of being yanked out of a state of flow, but it seems to be a lot more general than that.

Whether you're a geek or non-geek, whether you're in flow or just concentrating on something tricky, there's that moment of confusion when you're jolted out of your concentration by a chance remark, an innocent question, or even a vitally important but ill-timed message. During that moment, if you say something, there's going to be stress in your voice. You're going to snap at the source of the interruption.

And, especially if they love you, the source of the interruption is going to interpret your tone of voice as angry. Both effects, the snap and the reaction to it, are near-instantaneous and totally automatic. It's all over before either person has a chance to collect their wits and think about what they're saying or hearing.

In most cases, you didn't even notice. What you said and how you said it didn't even register on a conscious level -- you were thinking about something else, after all. The first thing you notice is the reaction.

All you can think to do, once you get that totally unexpected and, to you, totally unfair and unwarranted reaction, is explain what you think happened. All your poor partner/spouse/lover/friend/kid can think is that you're still angry and giving them a dressing-down. Don't go there: you're making things worse. Apologize as quickly as you can, and shut up.

The snapdragon solution

I'm suggesting the code-word "snapdragon" for this -- it's memorable, and somewhat descriptive. "Are you being a snapdragon?" "Sorry; I was a snapdragon there." Actually, just "snapdragon" works fine if you both know the code-word; Colleen has already used it that way this evening, less than an hour after I introduced it.

It'll work in both directions: the first one to notice a snapdragon interaction gets to tag it. Once you've confirmed that it was a snapdragon, you can -- and should -- drop the subject and move on. Preferably move on to something like a kiss or a hug, along with pride at having successfully averted a serious breakdown of communication.

I've already mentioned "Basingstoke" in a similar function, but it doesn't seem to have stuck in this context, perhaps because it's neither as memorable nor as specific. I think I'l save that one for use in the rather different situation where my disagreeing with something Colleen says comes across as not listening.

Just as a linguistic aside, my reaction at being accused of snapping at Colleen used to be something like "I didn't snap at you; you startled me and I couldn't control my voice." Rubbish. I snapped at her. I might not have been angry when I snapped, but "snapping" is the correct word for what I did. Sorry about that, Love.

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Fascinating post in O'Reilly Radar yesterday titled: Is it Time to Retire the Never-Ending List?

One afternoon, earlier this year, as I was scanning a long list that I was adding to endlessly, I realized, I'll never get it all done. That's probably just fine. But this endless list and this feeling of being completely scheduled's not working right now.

I met some friends for dinner and put the question out: Do you have a never-ending list? Do you manage your time? Do you manage minutes, tasks, and lists? Do you start each day with a list that has more on it at the end of the day than it did at the beginning of the day, in spite of how many items are completed and crossed off?

Or do you manage your attention? Do you manage emotions, intention, and make choices about what will and will not get done? What are your favorite ways to do this?

There were a couple of good suggestions, too. Worth a read.

I understand this. I, too, have an endless to-do list. I leave IM turned on and waste attention wondering whether I should ping someone, or wondering whether they'll ping me. I have a browser window up all the time with an easy, tempting bookmark for LJ. At home, LJ is always on a tab, along with a couple of posts where I want to follow comments! I have an editor window, sharing a ctwm tab with the browser, that's constantly viewing either email or my to-do list. It's too easy to get distracted.

Lately it's been changing a little. The list is still there, but there's a section with today's date. Whenever something comes up that needs to be done tomorrow or on the weekend, it goes there. Every day I can see both what I did, and what I didn't do. The rest of the endless list, organized by topic, is still mostly there, but it's not on the first page and I rarely look at it. Some things are going to get forgotten. Sorry about that.

I've dialed IM down a couple of notches; I should pull it down even more, I guess, and put the buddy list down where I can't see it. I should limit LJ even more, too, and not even look at it at work except at lunchtime.

Not all my river posts are about relationships. Sometimes it's just my relationship to the space-time continuum. Deal.

mdlbear: (snark-map)

So now that (in their terminology) I've chosen not to be a Landmark user, what now?

(Just as an aside, the "perfect and absolute blank" map from The Hunting of the Snark is still particularly appropriate: it has no landmarks.)

In this post, I'm not going to discuss what was useful to me in L (I've done that, at least in a sketchy way, in this post), and I'm not going to discuss why it's neither ethical nor safe for me to continue to try and get more tools from them -- that's covered pretty well here.

I'm going to talk about where I am now, ... )

 

... and where I go from here.

Last week I wrote a song called "The River". It was all about love, friendship, and flow.

That is what I want to work on. It's going to be a process, a journey down that river. It's going to pull in things from the Tao Te Ching, The Art of Loving, The Art of Computer Programming, and who knows what else.

If you choose to walk with me, I'll be glad of the company. I think I can promise you some interesting discussions and perhaps some interesting scenery, if nothing else.

Thank you, friends. All of you.

(Final aside: future posts on this topic in this journey will not be friends-locked unless absolutely necessary; they may be cut-tagged if they get long. They will not mention L by name. You'll find them under the tag river; the next one will probably be a refined version of this one without the back-references.)

Questions? Comments?

Flow

2008-02-04 09:24 pm
mdlbear: (hacker glider)

This will probably, at some point, expand into a "Care and Feeding of Your Geek" article; for now it's just some notes on flow and how it relates. the Wikipedia article defines flow as "the mental state of operation in which the person is fully immersed in what he or she is doing, characterized by a feeling of energized focus, full involvement, and success in the process of the activity." It's often described as "losing oneself" in the activity.

There's more. Go read it. I'll wait.

Most geeky activities -- programming, gaming, art, music, dance, reading -- are enhanced by the kind of active concentration that characterizes flow. Flow, in turn, is often one of the beneficial side-effects of Asperger syndrome, a mild form of which is common among geeks.

There are three things you have to know about flow and your geek.

First, if your geek is concentrating on something, you aren't there. Neither is he. (I'm going to use "he" to refer to your geek because I'm male, and this is partly directed to my keeper wife; adjust as needed.) Your geek may seem to be present; he may even be able to carry on what appears to be a brief conversation. Don't be fooled. Almost all of his mind is lost in what he's doing. Don't be surprised if he doesn't remember a thing you said afterwards.

Second, getting yanked out of a flow state hurts. If you break your geek's concentration, expect to be snapped at. It has nothing to do with you: he'd snap at a dog, his mother, or a phone call saying that he's won the lottery. The sensation, if you haven't felt it yourself, is a lot like being awakened from an exceedingly pleasant dream by a loud noise that can't be immediately identified. Your geek may not even remember what he says at that moment -- he'll be sorry about it, but he really didn't know what he was saying. You may have noticed him walking into lampposts while reading a book, too.

Third, however, is that flow is the reason why geeks often make surprisingly good lovers. Consider the implications of having 100% of his attention on you. If you ask him what he's thinking about, he might not be able to answer. If you ask him why he thought to scratch you just exactly there where you needed it, he probably won't be able to answer that one either. If you ask him to stop, ... never mind; you probably won't want to.

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